hey diddle diddle…the cat and the fiddle

OCTOBER 6, 2008

Whew! 2 new delayed entries. Whatever. I was roving in town earlier with Eryck. Hahaha. We had an ice cream eating contest at Circus Cafe awhile ago and i lost. Huhuhuhu That baloney eats ice cream like Crazy. Darrrnnn! So much for thinking of winning. Anyway, we ordered Pizza and all. Eryck didn’t go to school since last friday. I don’t know why he’s waiting for the Fiesta tomorrow..

We picked up 3 of our friends Jake, Sky and Raineheart. We went to Gloria de Dapitan and had an all-out fun galore with the street bump rides and all stuff.. we had bowling-YES THE GAME WHERE I TOTALLY SUCK AND EVERYTHING. i had so much fun… but… thinking about WANTED made my heart ache again.

I’ve stopped Uzzap for 4 straight days now and i don’t know when i’ll go back talking with the people there. I miss Krema, Shanel, Manika, Brat, Maligno, Jho, Vincent and Ms.C. Nostalgia! Nostalgia! Grrr…

For the record WANTED really gave me a serious heartbreak i couldn’t get by. I haven’t opened my PC yet ever since that friday night confession he had. His photos were my wallpapers. Sigh. And boy, what a total dipshit it was. I couldn’t understand why I suddenly became emo-is-doushbag. God i’m such an idiot for trully believing WANTED’s lies. sigh.

I couldn’t care less. How dare he said he loves me!

Darn… my shirt got coke all over it. Hey…where the hell is Rainheart and Eryck?

Jake: I think they’re with some girls

Me: Who?

Sky: Don’t know. There o.

My jaw dropped hard when i saw them with 2 really hot chicks. And i don’t even recognize them.

Eryck: Hey, this is Tifa. My friend from L.A. we were gradeschool friends.

Whoa! Rewind! How did she get here anyway? And who’s with Raineheart?

Eryck: And this is Camryn. Tifa’s  sister. she’s also 18.

What? does she look 18? well, girls from the states look bigger and more matured-looking than asians anyway.

Eryck: This is my special friend Debbie. Met her in junior year.

Tifa: Hi debbie. Heard so much about you

Me: Hello..yeah.. you don’t have to believe everything you hear from Eryck.

Tifa: Hey you have an american accent! How did you do that? Did you grew up in the states?

Me: Hahaha..no..I don’t know how i..

Eryck: It comes naturally Tifa (akbay mode)

Tifa: Cool! So where do you got to college Debs?

Eryck: in Silliman UNiversity. The first american school in the country.

Tifa: Wow..you must be big time! Well, as for me i go to Princeton.

Me: That’s not in L.A

Tifa: I know… we moved so, yeah. I dont have a permanent home really.

Eryck: Yeah and she’s here because they’re moving again.

Me: Why?

Tifa: nothing really serious..

Me: So where do you plan to study?

Tifa: I don’t knopw.. probably anywhere where i’d pass. *grin

Eryck: Bravo! Safe answer!

And a car honked at the entrance gate.

Tifa: Hey, I gotta go.. It’s my dad. We’re leaving for Manila tomorrow. Really wish to see you guys again. Bye Debs.

Me: Okay.. Have a safe flight. Bye. Nice meeting you.

And she left. Eryck kept on talking about her and i grew more interested about her.

Eryck: We used to go to detention together…

Me: O, bat nag eenglish ka? Wala na xa uy!

Eryck: wala lang. I missed my english. Ive been speaking straight bisaya for 5 years with no more than 4 sentences of english mixed.

Me: Ganun? So..ano na? Kala ko ba manonood tayo ng movies?

Eryck: oo nga. anong movies ba gusto mo? May DVDs ako sa bahay. I have…The Mummy 3, Hancock, Forbidden Kingdom…and ano pa ba…Wanted…taz…Zohan.

Me: Hay.

Eryck: Wanted na naman?
Me: I wana watch Rom-Com movies

Eryck: Good. I have new Rom Com DVDs from the states.

As we drove back with Eryck’s car, Raine acted so weird and i didn’t get what he’s trying to say.

Raineheart: She’s so pretty. Bro may number kaba sa kanya?

Me: sino bah? Si Camryn ba?

Raine: oo. Ganda nya noh? Bagay kami.

Sky: Sa hitsura mong yan papatulan ka? Hahaha..Baka sa pera mo pwede pa.

Eryck: Di ba may girlfriend ka na? Si Marielle ba yun?

Raine: Kasi bro..nagbreak na kami the other day at sobrang ang sarap kausap ni Camryn kanina bro. As in. Kahit sandali lang yun.

Me: Ganyan ba talaga kayong mga lalaki? Kahit may mga girlfriends na kayo..nawala lang sandali naghahanap na ulit kayo! Lang kwenta.

Raine: what’s wrong with you? bat kaba ganyan?

Jake: o awat na.

I could not tell Raineheart why i felt that way. i was scared that if he finds out i have a virtual ex bf who’s causing me to feel this way, he might laugh at me and make me fell bad MORE.

Eventually, when we got to Eryck’s house, Raine and I talked. He explained that he was just kidding around and that he loved no one else but Marielle. And i cried even harded than last friday. At that moment, i wished that WANTED had treated me seriously.

Me: Bakit ba kasi kayo nag break?

Raine: She wants to find herself daw e.. So yun.. But i’m still waiting for her.

Haay naman o! Tsk talaga! I think WANTED is not even this affected. I am 100% sure that he is not thinking about me. I guess he’s happier with that girl than me. After all, they’re both from Luzon.

We watched the MUMMY 3. Bah! Same old story. They did a digging, found a mummy, accidentally revived mummy, mummy kills them, they kill mummy, mummy dies and they live happily ever after. Im gonna give it a 4/10.

I phoned my best friend and we talked. I missed her so much. It has been 2 months since the last time we’ve talked. I needed comfort right now. Haaayy.. I want to get over this. NOW. I wanna do everything to forget him.

I don’t know ho many more guys would come to break me into pieces. I hope this is gonna be the last time.

Ano bang meron kay Ethel? Looks? I’m okay naman a. Money? Hello? marami ako nyan! Understanding? Understanding naman ako a. Sweetness? Sweet din naman ako… Hayyy.. siguro di lang talaga siya nakuntento sa akin.

I think KREMA is right. I should not get uber affected with it. Para saan? To show them i’m weak? I maybe loud and talkative outside but believe me, i’m fragile inside.

I’m picking up the pieces again and i just don’t know where i stand now. I feel broken…